i think about you,
and i dream about you all the time.

i realise that i should find soemthing to occupy myself with. like something to just do. coz my life now is so routine it is getting meaningless. it feels terribly sick. like i used to have exams to stress me, work to complete and too much to study. although even then i managed to fret alot on other things, it is worse now. like ok, work in camp is just work. i normally forget about it once i get out of there no matter how screwed up it was. and believe me, it was extremely bad the last three days. and thursday was probably the worst day of my time there so far. i really thank God for bringing me through. and i really felt His awesome powers yesterday too. you know, prayers really help. and i should be thankful beacause i'm expecting a grueling week ahead. ah. help. me.

on another note, it's really sad that man u is gonna get taken over by some idiot from america, who knows shit about soccer. it seems like sport is becoming business opportunities these days. a sad degradation don't you think? i say, keep sport and money-making separate. let sports fans not worry about things other than cheering for their team. go away, everyone else.

was a frustrating day today. the thing is that they should make full use whatever resources they have. like now i have to work for three bosses. and i discovered today that one of them is a totally screwed up fellow.(i just don't feel like spewing vulgarities here) totally ungrateful and faggoty. hope he goes away soon. then tomorrow i am attached to FMSO for the afternoon. hope it will be fine. wah sheesh man, this is stress. and i can't wait to get out of it.

argh. had a headache so bad this morning i thought i was going mad. hmm, and i think coffee does help. hehe. but the anount of workload didn't. like today all three of my small bosses were in. sian luckily, only 2 of them will give work. then today every officer decided to stay back to work till 1900, and i being on duty had to wait for them. sad huh. but it's my job. i will do it to the best of my abilities. that's the way things should work, isn't it. sometimes when i see how others not doing their part and i still bother to, i really wonder what for? but i believe in doing the right thing.

argh. some things are just choking. you know when you can't get it out. perhaps i'm just afraid, but what of? sheesh, i'm just escaping. i need to clear some things off soon. or i'll be the one being cleared away.